After reading the personal essay we felt a sort of pride for Amanda for making friends she had once detested. Her change in attitude toward the girls was surprising to us and even countered what we originally thought of her. This led us to believe that Amanda is actually a pretty friendly person despite of all her actions in the past. She came out of her comfort zone and discovered a side of her she had never seen before.
Amanda Thomson
explains her personality of being alone by using a story of her summer
experience with her church’s youth group. She believes that there is nothing
wrong with being alone. Her actions made audience feel a little bit surprised. She
tries to explain how her grandparents forced her to go to summer church for youths
so she can have social relations with others. The way she wanted to stay alone,
other kids were thinking that she may have problems as one of them kept questioning
her: “Why are you always thinking” (136)? “You know, I haven’t seen you smile
since I’ve met you. Are you sad”(136)? With all those questions she tries to
explain how she feels that she was not sad or angry where another one asked her
again:” Do you ever feel happy, then (137)? By avoiding others, she answered
that she can think more clear without them. After all, they understood that she
didn’t want to be a burden where they named her after Switzerland by comparing
her with it and explained how Switzerland avoided all things having to do with
war and they let her know she was doing the same. Amanda was happy to know that
someone understood her actions by naming her “Swiss”.